Yeah, I feel blessed
by: Katie MacIntyre
Lately, I have been feeling a little restless. Mostly, I believe it is because something is going to change. Mind you, I did not create the thing that will change, but I choose to embrace it.
Mid-summer I was layed off from my employer of nearly 12 years. More frightening to me was that I was the working parent, my husband the stay at home parent. I had to manage ego, finances and a toddler! But there was a sense of relief, a big sigh! A bigger part that I chose to let be, like blowing air into a bubble, and that was so so so exciting.
For these warm summer months I have been able to be so present, so connected, to walk every single day together with my son, take him on trips, alone and with my husband, cuddle longer, read together more, find new adventures together in simple things like packing a picnic or more advanced things like holding him while we go for a sail in the Finger Lakes. Mind you, these have not been extravagant months, but they have been filled with family, fun, food and tons of fun!
The summer of 2012, will always be, for this mama, a summer of connectedness. I feel one with my son, who says ‘mama’ like a champ. At the same time, I am searching for a job, such a duality…embracing the days I have knowing it all changes so so fast. That’s the restless feeling…lucky for me a look at him sleeping so peacefully or hearing his rhythmic breathing snaps me out if it. I know soon enough I will be back to work and away from him for much longer than I want. For now, I know, that, yeah, I am blessed.
About the Author: Katie is a marketing gal who will soon introduce her son to her 1899 home in upstate NY, down the road from Harriet Tubman and William Seward’s homes. She hails from NH and aspires to turn her entire yard into growing space eliminating the need for a grocery produce section and a mower.
What hidden blessings have you experienced? What situation that seemed overwhelmingly negative turned out to be the best thing that could have happened to you?